August 10, 2015
A Vague Post About Feelings Right Now
I've started, deleted, and restarted this post so many times I can't count. I've debated for a long time about whether or not to share what's going on with me on the blog, and quite honestly I still have reservations about it. So I'm going to that thing we're not supposed to do and write a vague post about it.
Emotions are tricky little devils that can sneak up on you out of no where, no matter how hard you try to keep them locked up and under control. Sometimes logic just flies out the window and leaves you floating up in the clouds with the rainbows and star dust that get your hopes up. Then reality swoops in popping your little bubble of happy hopefulness sending you plummeting back towards the ground.
I know I shouldn't have gotten so worked up over this, but my heart had other plans, secret plans it hid from my brain. And then I feel bad because I did get so emotional because there are others that have it much worse than I do right now. So I went to the store and got some Twizzlers and Chocolates, and now I'm having this writing session to get all of these emotions out. With Hubs keeping a close eye, reassuring me that it's ok that I have these feelings, but that there's still things we can be happy about. I shared my Twizzlers with him.
Wow... that really is kinda vague. But it's an accurate representation of my feelings lately, about more than one thing. As a blogger, my life is mostly laid out here for everyone to read. But Hubs and I feel that there are some things that we want to keep for ourselves. I'm trying to feel bad about being vague, and maybe I shouldn't post this because it's so vague, but my feelings are very real and in order to be as real as I can without revealing too much, sharing these feelings with you is better than radio silence, right?